the past few days have been rough, to say the least.

i remember m's pediatrician telling me that,

 at around fifteen months, they see a surge of separation anxiety in most kids.

well, like clockwork, on her fifteen month birthday it kicked in...

on superdrive.

if i take more than a step away from her,

she screams at the top of her lungs and thrashes her body.

it's awful.

and stifling.

even ivo is unable to soothe or calm her down.

i feel terrible that, a few times this weekend, 

i wanted to run, screaming from my house.

i just wanted to get away.

it's made me feel really down.

i  feel terrible that she's scared to be away from me.

is this caused by the fact that we're together 24/7?

i'm probably away from her, no more than, one to two hours a week.

is it too much?

or, is it something that's natural?

my friend randi once said to me, "the only way to get through it, is to go through it".

and, she's right.  

i just hope this faze ends sooner than later.

it's stressful for the both of us.

womp womp.

sorry for being such a debbie downer.

just needed to vent.

xo